so now, i m having lots n lots of test...it has been one month since the last time i update so here i am again...
Recently there are lots of things going on, good and bad , happy and sad...Family, Friends , Relationship ,Education....gonna talk about them one by one, and going to vent out som things, so bear with me okay...
Friends; it is ok for friends to have disagreement from times to times but it shouldn't take to long for us to get together lyk last time again, or it would really get very far apart, you might think we can't be the same again but no matter what i still believe we can...So sharon, lets try to be as close as we could again, and i really hope we can be the same together lyk last time, truthfully...
-okay so now gona vent something...I have tried very hard to be your close friend, but no matter how hard i tried,'you' wouldn't even give it a damn and not saying good or close friend i don't even think i m a friend to 'you' even though i had done so much for 'you'...Don't 'you' feel guilty of what 'you' had done or i should say what 'you' have said...i don't expect a return from 'you' but is it just so hard for 'you' to treat me like a normal close friend...i have given up because i had tried for the past two years and 'you' don't even care then why should i even care about your FAR KING problems and perhaps 'you' can say i m being too girl or gay or sissy or whatever it is, but do 'you' know that things that 'you' don't care or what 'you' think may not be the same lyk what others have in mind...So spare a thought for me and think how u will feel if i do the exact same thing to 'you'....I m not the only one who feel that i have treat you more than i should and i have been letting you do whatever you want , even others around me also said so and they also agreed that you are really OVERBOARD....
Relationship; it is going very very bad and it seems lyk no more hope not even lyk 10% so i wana GIVEUP and this time is for real, i have waited for you and hint you so many times and tried every ways to make u or myself spent more time together but it is all a waste and u don't even notice it, offcourse i don't blame you because i m the one not daring enough to tell u i have always been loving you...
Education; recent test doesn't look good and it seems really disastrous, so got to buck up....don't wanna care about those problems first...i juz wana concentrate now....
My days seems lyk so wrecking and so fCuked up right, but well that is just the fact...everything going down down down...really feel lyk dying sometimes,if i die 'YOU' will be more happier than anyone right but who cares about you...i will live better than you...
